ngarag!

last nyt was tegan's debut.. went to sm sucat to buy her a gift...i bought a bag for her and for myself din.. hehehe.. had it wrapped at national bookstore *qt ng wrapper, pink with a big ribbon on it*. i dropped by mcdo to eat and saw rach with a frend.. went home after..
at around 5 went to elorde na kc the make up artist is there na daw... *kapal ng make up ever kya i had to wyp it a little.. hehe..*
saw danica there....pheobus *18 shots* and Lem *18 roses* didn't show up... too bad 'di complete ung mga sets..but the program must go on so they got nlang some guests there to take their place.

during the cotillion:
disaster!!! first, mli ung positions..2nd, wrong turns.. but it was fun tho...they laughed at us.. but we were just there dancing OR shud i say playing.. lolz!
18 candles:
mawik: 'twas okei.. bgla akong npa-taglish.. hehehe...naunahan nga lang nya ako sa dpat na s2bhin ko 'bout her..

rave part! hehehe... kilig moment.. jezz *my crush* asked me to dance with him.. grbe, his face at that very moment is still tatooed on my mind... :p yun nga lang, i didn't grab the chance... kc tita liza *nax! fc!* (she's teg's aunt) gave each of us a half full champagne glass with red wine... e i'm not comftble dancing with that hot feeling insyd..kya un..
pro he's so cute tlga!:p

so un, my dad fetch me mga 1am na..can't sleep pa.cgro mga 3 nko nka tulog...

this morning: woke up mga 9am....allergy attack na nman! well, nklmtan ko kgbe na meh allergy ako sa alchohol kya un..


NWEIZ...
rach: kya mo yan! that's one of the risons y i dnt wanna go to st.scho.. in the first place it's my mom's dcsion y i'm there ryt now... kya yan! 3 more years to go! hahahaha.. -joke!:p

You know who you are! ^_^
You are girl with long hair.


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friday.. blis ng araw... 2 more weeks to go! hehehe..

k2tpos lang ng grad compe.. 4L won.. astig!
4A *our section* did well.. thank god! hehehe... accdg. sa mga tao ngBlend and alang sablay.. ehehehe...

rach: hehehe...bti nga ikaw 4 hours lang noh!.. kme whole nyt pa mnsan as in wlang tulugan and buong nyt hngang morning asa hrap ng comp... hehehehe... *sa lgay n2 highskul plang kme, lufet!* msya yan!:p

wOwee! wat a day!
i woke up great this morning expecting things to be GREAT! *but i was wrong..*
well, in a way it's fine..had only 5 subjects (2 periods of computer, literature, algeb, music and another two periods of automotive)

computer tym: my proposal for our project was approved so i have to do OUR project alone.. it's kinda fair nman kc we have this agreement in the group wherein in mavy *she's good in english and speech* is in charge on our Lit paper and speech defense *pro mlmang we all have to defend our paper*, marci *artist in the group* in charge sa mga projects in CLE and pani...bsta anything to do with drawing.. Betsy *leader figure* in charge sa physics and get together ng group, ME!in charge sa comp...visual basic program and codes...

Literature: we talked abt our defense nga and self & group evaluation regarding the paper works.. lolz! im honest nman to give myself a fair grade.. *infairness, thesis statement ko ang naApprove.. hahaha...:p*

algeb: pmtay! amblis mgturo ni Ms.Cortez.. tpos she taught us pa 2 topics in just 50 mins! sbay kwnto cya na tnro nya sa college un ng ilang days.. tpos smen less than an hour lang.. sh*t! prang mas okei pa ata sa college e.. pro kme nman daw mk2nbang kya okei lang..

music: practice ng grad song... mga 'di cryso mga tao kya mjo sbog.. as in SABOG!!!

automotive: wla, bstsan.. hahaha... film viewing pro ala nman nno2od.. lhat bc sa grad pix.. hehehe.. actuali, ako din..

after dismissal: practice.. some did well, pro 'di pa din okei...
we got our phy6 longtest results na 'di ko pngaralan and akla ko bgsak ako kc nfeel ko during the test na mali ako sa mga sgot ko.. pro psdo ako! hehehe... mjo tnmad lang sa last page, lhat mali..
practice2 until 6...
i ran downstairs agad kc i thot the carpool would w8 for me.. but No! i was just 30 mins l8, and MINSAN lang ako ml8...tpos iiwan nla ako! hah! while the others na 1 hr and always l8, hnhntay! 'd hell! *kinda my fault, di ako ngtxt* pro di pren!
ta's un, i saw julius portus *dlsu ba cya??* hehehe..hltang bgo sa taft, 'di mrnong mgtanong kung san ung shuttle na ppntang sucat.. after lyk 10mins na pgskay ko sa shuttle ska lang nya nkta ung shuttle na un..

nweiz,

rach: hahaha... kya mo yan... welcome to st.scho! :p snyan lang yan! bti nlang pnprga kme sa mga defense and ka-hectican kc mdme daw nyan sa college.. hehehe.. kya mo yan! *m0ral support!*

mawik: wla lang... amishu!

ale: gnmet ko rin ung pbase, ala na kc ako mhnap na iba e... hehehe..

i got my grad pictures na nga pla.. bka nxt week ko pa ma-upload d2 e..

cge, it's gettin' long na.. visit the pix nlang..

fEb.24,2004oooooookei....so, k2onlyn ko lang and naubos agad ung card.. *my brother's been using the net the whole day of this week..*

aion, had phy6 long test..both practical and written... ta's practice for the grad song compe on friday.. badtrip mga tao, 'di cnsryso... hay, ka2miss tlga junior year... we had that shake's fest play...mjo 'di rin cnryso and kla nmen ang klat nmen sa stage, but NO! 'di nhlta ng audience na ngppanic kme bakstage. and we won 2nd place over all! hahaha... 1st and 2nd year na play nmen, lang kwnta..gagohan! hay, hopefully, kme sna mnlo sa grad song.. kung aaysin lang sna ng mga tao ang pgkanta nla, mganda sna e... haaaay.............
ta's un, we went to UVA *resto sa greEnbelt* we saw franco laurel *he's the owner8 aion, foodtrip ung elective nmen... after 30 mins dmting cna sir ronio and ms.gallegos... astig! chef dun ung husband ni ms.gallegos...hehehe....
on my four years in st.scho, first tym kme pnskay sa aircon st.scho bus.. *always kme sa hindi aircon or dun sa aircon pro small bus..


fEb.25
k2rting lang from the practice na dpat 10 ngstart.. pro hndi e, 2pm ngstart.. aion, sna ngcmba na pla ko knnang 10am.. hay, the usual, 'di complete.. pro mjo pnerfect na nmen... ngdrop by c danica to get her invitation...
aion..

Feb.19- Thursday:
Ordinary day… got a gate pass to be able to leave the campus by 2pm:my mom fetched me then went straight to makati med…:w8d for my tita who is a doctor their::went to dr.canlas for an allergy skin test::found out that I have allergies on dust, house mites, and foods with preservatives::went back to my tita’s clinic::went home…

Feb.20-Friday:
Dpat pnta kme sa fair ng CSA with arv and his kada there::’twas canceled kc kae lost her wallet::wave campus tour…too bad I wasn’t able to go, and glee club concert…::stayed home, net, chat, and w8d for tells (ate else-the one who took care of me since my birth)* I missed her soooo much..*

Feb.21-starurday:
Woke up early, confirmation..im with my parents and ninangs::im wearing gala and rach saw me wearing it..pro okei lang..:p :: after confirmation we ate at DAD’s…food trip!!! Hehehe..eat all we can…::*still wearing a gala..* k2hiya, pro bte nlang ria and family, jimiah and family ate there din..and they too still in gala…::after lunch, *still wearing gala, take note:sa glorietta 2!* I bought na a grad ball dress… tgal bgo ko mhnap ung tlgang gs2 ko…::got calyo on my feet because of my shoes…::tells went home na…wen I got home she txted me, and drama ever kme…I cried dhl k2miss tlga *im a yaya’s girl kc ever since*…upto now, nm2ga eyes ko…aion, can’t connect kc my uncle’s gonna call..*offlyn me ryt now*…haaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy………….

OH MY GOD! i ALmost 4got!!!!!!!!!!! TERE! HAPPY 7th MONSARY!!! *joke2! na mg-on kme..trio with allane..*
HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! alabshu! mwuah!:p

yesterday: a bad day! no doubts!

woke up so clumsy and sleepy...tryin' to control the cold temperature all over the place, ate just bread and hot chocolate *the usual breakfast i had b4*, shivering 'coz of the cold water and still not in the mood to go to skul "skul sucks! u dnt need them anyway, all u need in lyf is value, ethics and the basics to be able to survive..when u get to college, u'l forget wat u've learned in highschool, but all the experience and practical applications such as values and ethics will always remain" - that is what our speech teacher would tell us.. but hey! it's true, SO TRUE! y the hell do we need to learn algebra,phy6,speech etc... i kindda know y, but i dnt get the point..?? y do teachers lyk ms.tyn our teacher in phy6 would ryt a note on my papers, things lyk "very good! keep it up van!" when she really dnt mean it! when im here, gettin' the highest possible grades on my tests, quizzes, homeworks etc...she's there, giving me card grades that i dnt deserve! f*ck! what the hell is wrong with her! y did my kbrkda got a 78 wen she dnt pass 1 longtest, perio, and quizzes...wyl me, who have high grades on quizzes, passed the longtest and perio got a 76! wat a bitch! is her reason y she gave my kbrkda that grade because she sensed that she have a crush on her! sh*t! she's just lyk my chem teacher back in 3rd year! i just dnt wanna complain 'coz i know that ms.tyn is a kind of person who won't accept that she's wrong...and my mom will surely make sugod which i dnt wanna happen...

ookei, so that is just a part of yesterday's BAD DAY! *for crying out loud!*

another was my econ essay take home longtest... so there i was, wen i entered our classroom, i found it empty so i had no choice, went straight to the office to get an absent slip *'coz i didnt go to our family day* :;long lyn of students..the usual.. w8d for mins.. i wasn't aware that our OSR collected papers na, since the papers were kulang, she went back and askd us.. i gave her my paper, my other classm8s too gave their's l8... mrs.isidro didn't accept it.. so, technically we recieved a 0/50 longtest which is 20 percent of our cardgrade... we begged her, but NO! she didnt even came closer to talk to us, she just made that stupid signs that she will no longer accept it..

wat's up with teachers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2day:: not that bad... but again, alrgy attacks! so itchy and stuff..
nothing unusual happened... not in the mood in socializing with people this day...
just all of a sudden my "other syd" the quiet one came up.. lolz!

hay, ktmad.. la na nman kme psok 2day.. *kc family day nmen khpon,* di dn ako pmnta khpon.. hehehe..
SENIORS! congrats! galing2! hehehe... we won daw sa street dance ata un, per year level compe.. prize: 10,000.. *uhmm..pwde bang idag2 nlang un sa pax?? pra onti nlang ang ba2yran sa yearbook..*
so un, khpon,,,,9am mass sa valley 1.. we saw lola *distant relative*..chika2 ever cla ni mama.. sympre, lola's is proud of my bro... *her and her husband is frustrated kc their son doesn't want to take medcine course* kya aion, all eyes on my brother and i... 3pm practice..nmove nnman sa feb.28 ung debut ni tegs..she showed me the invitation.. i missed the practice last week, pro okei lang..adjust.. the usual, the boys r making fun of vevell... hehehe... jess arrived l8 na, ta's ngka-prob keh kat...*at least di na cya mgbback out* ta's un, went home agad... d2 mga fwends ni kuya.. sympre ako pa ang pngwa ng resume ng mga un! 2 lang cla.. they went sumwer to find a job.. my mom told my kuya na nga na he cud go to mkti med nman kc we have a tita there pra ipsok cya..e kuya doesn't want...gs2, srling sikap.. *sbgay..* so un..
2mrow na ippass ung take home long test sa econ! essay cya...and di pko gmgwa! mjo ngyn plang ako ngrresearch.. ehehehe...

mawik!: sowee, 'di nko nkreply seo last nyt, pngwa kc ako ng resume e..
rach!: nxt tym, post ko d2 ung code...

feb.13-friday
teacher's day! aion, mass then program after recess..
ehehehe...meh skit, ta's smyaw ung pep and dance club, kmnta ung glee club..
meh video clip na pinkta based sa presentation ng teachers 2 years ago...
ngpresent ung seniors ng mga cheers nmen bck in ssa pampangga...with steps.. hehehe.. ang fun! ang funny din kc only teachers and seniors ang nk2relate..na-aliw nman ung lower levels.. lolz!
ta's the surprise (hi-tch scanner and printer) of the HS unit to the teachers were given to them na..
sing-along with the teachers...greetings ek2... bsta fun.. 1st tym na nngyre sa history of teacher's day in st. scho.. mjo k2lungkot, last year nmen.. :c lolz! seniors ang nkaicp ng lhat.. haay..

feb.14-sat,.
HAPPY!!!:p
loveless...pro okei lang...
hehehe... i remember last year's valentyn.. memorable for some reasons..
first, i saw this sum1 sa st.scho unexpectedly....2nd road trip nmen ni kae... from skul, we dropped by smBicutan to buy some stuffs for the prom the next day, ta's nung pauwi na, we w8d for lyk 30mins for a jeep na 'di puno, unfortunately, we walked from smB to marcelo vill.. hehehe... lyn ni kae "malay ko bang ccryosohin ng mga tao ang valentyns"..lolz!
aion...back to reality:
di n2loy ung practice, accdg. to teg, meh d8 daw c vevell (ung bading na dance instructor) lolz! bonga ang loka! meh d8! hahaha.. so un...

Alam nyo nakakatawang isipin kung paano nasasabi
ko sa sarili ko na
"I believe in love." Nakakatawa sya kasi sa buong
buhay ko, ni wala pa yatang nagpakita sa akin o
nagparamdam ng lintek na pagmamahal na yan. Ang
ibig
kong sabihin yung pagmamahal na tipong
nakakabaliw.

Sabi pa nga minsan nung isa, "We're better off as
friends." PUCHA! Kaibigan?! Sa lahat ng ginawa ko
para sa kanya at sa lahat ng sinakripisyo ko,
kaibigan lang pala ng habol nya sa akin. Ano ba
ito, lokohan lang? Pero sige, sabi ko "move on,
move on."
Tapos itong isa naman sabi
"Mabait lang ako sa babae kaya ako ganito sa
iyo."
Lalong masakit! Bakit? Hanep naman kasi.
Bibisitahin ka linggo-linggo sa bahay, magiging
sweet sa iyo, kakantahan ka pa, yayakapin,
hahalikan at higit sa lahat sasabihing
napakaganda mo at napakabait at ano ba
yun 'special' girl ka sa kanya. Hindi mo aakalain
na normal lang pala nyang ginagawa yun. Ikaw
naman, mafofall ka, hindi mo mapigilan.
SORRY NAMAN! D KO SINASADYA! Pero wala ka namang
magawa. Ang sabi ko naman sa sarili ko
ngayon, "it's your loss, not mine."

Yung iba naman, eh di syempre manliligaw. At
dahil likas akong dalagang Pilipina (ako to! ako
to!), papakipot muna ako. Kung kailan mo na
sasagutin, saka naman hihinto. Bakit? (wala
kasing b@%*s!!!) Aakalain na hindi mo sya gusto,
na pinaasa mo lang at wala kang kabalak-balak
sagutin (eng-eng siya eh! suko kagad!). Guys,
isang advice lang, hindi naman kayo paaasahin ng
mga babae kung wala silang gusto ni katiting sa
inyo. Maaaring mali ako, pero karamihan sa amin,
kaya pinapatagal eh dahil gusto kayong subukan
kung hanggang saan ang tagal nyo at syempre kung
gaano kayo kaseryoso. --hahaha!!! sobrang totoo
to (in my case anyway). Yan lang naman ang
drama namin, masanay na kayo. At ano naman ang
sabi ko naman sa sarili ko ngayon? Bahala ka!
Marami pa naman dyang iba!" Tapos sige move on
ulit.
Ito ang pamatay sa lahat. Nanligaw si lalaki,
sinagot ni babae. Maganda na sana ang
relationship tapos isang araw, sasabihin na lang
sa iyo, "Hindi ko na kaya. Tapusin na natin ito.
Iniwan ka na lang basta ng dahil sa isang
dahilang hindi mo malunok, maintindihan at
tanggapin.
Ni hindi mo alam kung gusto mong sabunutan o
suntuk-suntukin ng paulit-ulit baka sakaling
matauhan at sabihin nyang, "Joke lang po." Pero
hindi. Sa halip na sya ang makaramdam ng sakit ng
sabunot at k irot ng suntok, ikaw pa ang halos
mamatay sa triple or higit pang sakit. At ang
masakit pa kinabukasan malalaman mo na ang tunay
na dahilan eh, 'sila' na ng matalik mong
kaibigan. PUCHA! Hindi mo alam kung iiyak ka, o
sisigaw ka o susugurin mo
ang your so-called "bestfriend" at isumbat sa
kanya lahat ng nararamdaman mo. Sa huli, wala
kang magawa kung hinde tanggapin ang lahat at
maging masaya para sa kanila. May magagawa ka pa
ba? Sasabihin mo naman sa sarili mo, "Makakarma
rin kayo!" tapos hala, move on ulit.
Nakakapagod magmahal, totoo yan. Pero bakit pa
rin ako patuloy na naghihintay? Masyado lang ba
ang tiwala ko sa pag-ibig o likas na tangengot
lang talaga ako. Pareho yata. Tama, oo, pareho
nga. Ang lakas kasi ng tiwla ko sa 'love." Tipong
kakambal ko na ba.

Masarap magmahal kahit na hindi mo alam kung
mahal ka rin nya. Basta ikaw, mahal mo sya. Yun
lang ang importante. Makita mo lang sya, feel mo
gusto mong magpa-fiesta. Madikitan mo lang ang
sinulid ng damit nya, ang
sasabihin mo sa sarili mo, "Ay shet! Nadikit ako
sa balat nya!" at sabay talon. Ngitian ka lang
nya, pwede ka ng magpasagasa sa kotse or kahit sa
LRT. Drama noh?
Paano pa kaya kung "kayo" na? Eh di mas lalong
humaba ang buhok mo. Andito na yung lagi nilang
sinasabing hindi ka makakain, hindi ka makatulog
at hindi ka makapag-isip na kahit na ano maliban
lang ang mga pantasya mo na kasama sya.

Madrama na kung sa madrama pero pag in-love, ay
sus! Walang corny-corny, basta para sa kanya
kahit may corn field ka na sa utak at puso mo,
wala kang pakialam. Patuloy kang magmamahal at
aasa na kayo na nga sana forever and ever.

Ako? Parang takot na yata akong ma-in-love ulit. -
-oo nga! Parang takot na akong sumubok pa ng isa.
Parang ayoko na! Pero parang hindi tama. Ganyan
naman sa 'love' di ba? Sige lang, tuloy ka
hangga't makita mo ang katapat mo. --sana
pinanganak na yung katapat ko..
Takot man akong sumubok muli, kakayanin ko ang
takot na ito. Hindi para sa akin, kundi para dun
sa taong mamahalin ako ng higit pa sa kahit na
ano. Yung taong aalagaan ako, taong magsasabi na
maganda ako kahit na halos lumuwa na ang mata ko
sa puyat at yung taong magsasabi na
"Mga 'tol, yan ang girlfriend ko. Iisa lang yan
sa buhay ko." HAAAYYY!!! Sarap isipin noh?
Masarap at masakit umibig. Magkakambal yan. Nasa
inyo na lang kung pipiliin nyong kumapit o
bumitaw.

Ngayon eto ako, umaasa pa rin. Andito pa rin ako
na nagpapatuloy sa buhay, patuloy na humihinga at
patuloy na nabubuhay para sa 'kanya' yung taong
darating na para lang sa akin. At syempre eto pa
rin ako, natatawa kapag sinasabi kong, "I believe
in love." Natatawang naniniwalang totoo ito.

HAPPY HEART'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:p

A Love Story

It all started when I was 6 years old. While I was playing outside on my farm in California, I met a boy. He was an average kind of boy who teased you and then you chased him and beat him. After that first meeting in which I beat him up we kept on meeting and beating each other up at the fence. That only lasted for a little while though.

We would meet at the fence all the time and we were always together. I would tell him all my secrets. He was quite very quiet he would just listen to what I had to say. I found him easy to talk to and I could talk to him about everything.

In school, we had separate friends but when we got home we would always talk about what happened in school. One day I said to him that a guy I liked hurt me and broke my heart. He just comforted me and said everything would be okay. He gave me words of encouragement and helped me get over him. I was happy and thought of him as a real friend. But I knew that there was something else about him that I liked. I thought of it that night and figured it was just a friend kind of thing that I was feeling.

All through high school and even through graduation we were always together and of course I thought of it as being just friends. But I knew deep inside that I really felt differently. On graduation night even though we had different dates to the prom I wanted to be with him. That night after everybody went home I went to his house and I wanted to tell him that I wanted to see him. Well that night was my big chance and all I did was just sit there with him watching the stars and talk about what I was going to do. I looked into his eyes and listened to him talk about what his dreams was. How he wanted to get married and settle down. He said how he wanted to be rich and successful. All I could do was to tell him my dream and cuddle next to him. I went home hurt because I didn't tell him how I was feeling. I wanted to tell him so bad that I loved him but I was too scared and frightened. I let my feelings go and tol myself that someday I would tell him just how I felt.

All through college I wanted to tell him but he always had someone with him. After the graduation, he got a job in New York I was happy for him but at the same time I was sad that he was leaving for his big job. So I just kept it to myself and watched him go on the plane. I cried as i hugged him for what I felt was going to be the last time. I went home that night and cried my eyes out. I felt that I didn't tell him what I had inside my heart. Well, I got a job as a secretary and then worked my way to a computer analyst. I was proud of what I had accomplished.

One day I got a letter with an invitation to a marriage. It was from him. I was happy and sad at the same time. Now I know that I could never be with him and that we could only be friends. I went to the wedding the next month. It was a big occasion. The big church wedding and the reception at the hotel. I met the bride and of course him. I fell in love one more time. But I held back so it wouldn't spoil what should be the happiest day in his life. I tried to have fun that night but it was killing me inside watching him being so happy and me trying to be happy covering up my sadness and tears inside of me. I left New York feeling that I did the right thing. Before I left on the flight, he came running out of nowhere and said his good-byes and how he was very happy to see me. I came home and just tried to forget about what went on in New York. I had to go with my life.

As the years went on, we wrote to each other on what was going on and how he had missed talking to me. On one occasion, he never wrote back to me at all. I was getting worried as to why he hadn't written anything for a long time after I had already written 6 letters to him. Well, just when everything seemed hopeless and sad in my life, I got a note that said, "Meet me at the fence where we used to talk about things." I went and saw him there. I was happy to see him, but he was broken-hearted and sad inside. We hugged until we couldn't breathe anymore. Then he told me about the divorce and why he hadn't written for a long time. He cried until he couldn't cry anymore. Finally, we went back to the house and talked and laughed about what I had been going and to catch up on old times. But in all of this I couldn't tell him how I felt about him. In the days that followed, he had fun and forgot about all his problems and divorce. I fell in love again with him. When the time came for him to leave back to New York, I went to see him off and cried. I hated to see him leave. He promised to see me every time he could get a vacation. I couldn't wait for him to come so I could be with him. We would always have fun when we were together.

One day he didn't show up like he said he would. I figured that he might have been busy. The days turned into months and I just don't care about it. Then I got a call one day from a lawyer in New York. The lawyer said that he had died in a car accident going to the airport. And that it took this long till everything was settled. It broke my heart. I was shocked about what took place. Now I knew why he didn't come that day. Again I was broken hearted. I cried that night, cried tears of sadness and heartache asking questions why did this happen to a kind guy like him. I gathered my things and went to New York for the reading of his will. Of course, things were given to his family and his ex-wife. I finally got to meet her since the last time we met at the wedding. She explained to me how he was and how he always provided. But he was unhappy. She would always try everything but she couldn't get him happy, as he was that night at their wedding. When the will was read, the one thing that was given to me was his diary. It was a diary of his life. I cried as it was given to me. I didn't know what to think. Why was this given to me? I took it and flew back to California.

As I flew on the plane I remembered the good times that we had together. I started reading the diary and what was written. The diary was stared the day we first met. I read on till I started to cry. The diary told of him saying that he had fallen in love with me that day I was broken hearted. But he was too afraid to tell me what he had felt. That is why he was so quiet and liked to listen to me. It told of how he wanted to tell me so many times but was too afriad to say anything. It told of when he went to New York and fell in love with another. How the happiest time he had was seeing me and dancing with me at the wedding. How he was always unhappy till he had no choice but to divorce his wife. How the best time in his life was to read the letters written to him by me.

Finally, the diary ended when it said, "Today I will tell her I love her."

It was the day he was killed. The day I was going to finally find out what was really in his heart.



"The essential sadness is to go through life without loving. But it would almost equally sad to leave this world without ever telling those you loved that you love them." ......

kuya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CONGRATS!!!!!!! *my brother dear passed the PT board exam!*
grbe, wat a conversation with my parents..
they told my brother to slowly pass to me the crystal ball (meaning, i'm gonna b the next one in the Romano clan to take a board exam).. actually, knang morning ko pa iniicp un.. tym flys so fast.. ako na next!!!!!!! now i know how my brother feels... all eyes on u, ta's ang scary na bka ako pa ang mgBreak ng we-passed-the-board-exam tradition in the family.....
whew! it'll be after 4 years pa nman.. bsyds, insan ko mna ulit b4 me...:p

nweiz, aion, my brother dnt want me to go to san beda, all boys daw.. elo!? hs lang un.. 'tsss...boys.. hahahaha...
so there.. wla lang.... nothing new..*i think*

la lang.. ehehe... eka send this college thing sa email... trip ko lang iPost d2.. lolz!!:p
so un, mawik! nyc layout! hehehe... o nga, lyt ung layout na cnnd ko seo... i'll use it nlang nxt tym... but i'm glad u found na the ryt layout... hehehe
wla lang.. love is in the air kht na love less ako this valentine... inspired nman and no worries.. hehehe.... grbe, i cnt explain it e, pro l8ly there is this "smyl" on my face.. bsta, ka2iba...ewan ko kng bkt.. or bka dhl keh ******, or keh **** or sa iba... hahaha... ah bsta! i'm happy!
kae!!!first valentine with arv! *yikee!*so un, sa mga gsto pmnta sa HS dance ng st.scho, contact me... sa feb.28 un.. nklmtan ko ung nme ng mga bands e.. i'l post it hir nlang nxt tym.. and concert ng glee club sa feb.21 ata.. sa st. cecilia's hall, st.scho,mla... hehehe.. mgpromote daw ba?! bsta un...

i'm so hAppy!:p

You learn a lot when you go to college.

You learn that pulling an all-nighter means staying up
all night to
study
for a test you will then sleep through.

You learn to appreciate the taste of beer - the
cheapest of all
alcoholic
beverages.

You learn that you can roll out of bed 10 minutes
before class and go
to
class looking like shit - and no one will notice or
care.

You learn you really can do things for yourself
without your parents
looking over your shoulder - but you also learn you
never realized how
nice it was to have them there, just in case.

More than anything, however, you learn how much your
friends really
mean
to you. College friends come to mean a lot to you, but
they can never
compare to your friends from home.

Your friends from home teach you the meaning of
friendship during your
college years; because you are apart from them you
tend to express
your
feelings more - you learn how much these people truly
affect your
life.
You've got your best friend who exemplifies friendship
- she calls at
least once a week, sends email everyday, and even
sends you real
mail.
You
feel
like you never left each other... she still knows
everything about
you,
and even over the internet she can tell when something
is wrong. She
teaches
you that distance doesn't have to change a friendship
at all.

Then there is your other best friend.
She rarely calls or writes and she doesn't do the
email thing. At
times
you think she has forgotten about you... until you
hear from her. You
hear
from her for the first time in almost two months and
nothing has
changed.
You
are still you and she is still her - even though you
never as close as
ever, you are still the best of friends. You find
yourself expressing
to
her just how much she means to because you realize it
now more than
ever.
She teaches you that true friends are friends in the
soul... no
separation can tear them apart.

Then there are those friends that you sort of lost
touch with those
last
few months of highschool and during the summer. You
were busy, they
were
busy... but somehow, the magic of email has brought
you
closer together than you ever were in four years at
the same school.
You
share secrets, heartaches, and joys... it's another
person who cares
about you as long as you will care about them too.
Away from all the
ettiness
of high school, you've finally formed an adult
relationship... and you
realize just how great a friend this person is.
Suddenly, the people that you thought for sure you
would lose touch
with
in college are the ones you keep in closest contact
with - and you
miss
them
more than you ever thought possible.

Sadly enough, there are also the friends that you were
closest to in
high school who drift too far for you to hold on to.
You've both
changed and
suddenly you don't have much to say to each other.

But these people teach you a lesson too - they make
you value the
others,
the ones you have stayed close to, that much more.
These distant
friends,
though you miss them when you rarely think of them,
show you who your
forever friends really are - and they make you
appreciate those
forevers
much more.

College is rough. College severs some bonds and
solidifies others...it
puts a distance between you and the ones you love
before. But it
teaches you
so much. It forces your real friends to come to the
front, while the
rest
take their places in the shadows of your memories.

In college you lose some people - but through real
friendship and the
strength of the soul (which is where real friends join
as one) you
keep
the ones you will need most in your life. You learn
the real meaning
of
the
quote: If you press me to say why we were friends, I
can say no more
than
it was because she was her and I as me.

The people who fit that mold are your forever
friends.So send this on
to
those forever friends. Send it to the ones you keep in
touch with. And
send it to the ones you don't - just to tell them how
much you
appreciate
all
they did for you.

And send it to your new college friends, who hopefully
will someday
too
be your forever friends. People say true friends must
always hold
hands, but
true friends don't need to hold hands because they
know the other hand
will always be there.

You've got to dance like nobody's watching, and love
like it's never
going to hurt...

batong-bato nko d2! hahaha..2 days of vacation! lolz!
bdtrip pa! ung mga pmsok daw khpon meh 5 merits! ano ba un?! 'di ba obvius na npgod kme sa mga pnpga2wa nla smen sa pampangga?! bsyds, tpos na un, dpat ala nang merits! hmpf! unfair! *oookei van, la kang sense!:p*
hay, aion.. kuya is back na! whoohoo! infairness, i missed him alot... *wow! ako ba 'to?!?* hehehe... and he has a new fone, colored... sh*t! naunahan mko! hahaha...nxt tym, mas asenso pa sa fone mo ang mg2ng fone ko.. hehehe...:p
hay,hay,hay... so un, khpon mega chat ako.. hehehe... lolz! kulit ni vonn.. la lang..:p
aion, im gettin' headache na b'coz of the comp..
so i'd better end this na..

so here it goes...

feb.7'04
SEE-Pampangga...we went to st.Scholastica's Acadamy, pampangga...
aion, 2log kaen sa bus for 2 hours.. ehehehe... wen we arrived, i heard sum of the scholasticans there say na "mga tga st.scho,mla yan.." la lang... infairness, co-ed cla...
so un, big campus, pro andun pren ung old-buildings-structure ng st.scho...:p big field, dme nga lang ants and flying insects... then we assembled our tents...ta's cheering (hehehe...sabog nmen,) we performed the "rainer dance" lolz!:p
hay grbe, bilad sa araw that day... mjo ampanget pa ng tan-line ko..sa shirt.. hehehe...
kpgod ever! throughout the activities, mega laet ng complains ang nari2nig ko from pipol, *well,im one of them, pro slyt lang..i keep it to myself.:p*

feb.8'04
mosquito bites attack!!! sh*t! di ko na lam kung mosquito bites ba or alergy ang asa katawan ko!
we thot pa na ung first bell na kme g2cing but NO! it's lyk there were 4 bells, first two bells daw r for the sisters ta's ung last two tlga ung sme...kya un, i wasn't able to have a good sleep. aion, another academic challege in physics and algeb.. sya cya... ala survivor thing..:p mga around 1pm we're on the way home, nka datng kme sa skul mga 4pm ta's we stayed there for 1 hr to w8 for den's mom...
wasn't able to attend the practice na..

marie!*cuz* haburdei!:p

2day!
supposedly half day kme, mass nd 2 subjects.. since mdmeng seniors di p2sok, myt as well stay here nlang and rest... hehehe... 2mrow din alang pasok! st.scho feast!
hehehe...

eist!
la lang... i lyk my layout.. ehehehe...

la kme psok 2day! we'll be going to st.scho. acadamy pampangga kc this weekend for our SEE(senior's enrichment watever that is...) sort of survivor...

wla lang...i'l be gone 4 2 days..

aion, 'til here...mgcchat pko! hahaha...

ciao!

BEST I EVER HAD
vertical horizon

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

Send it in a letter
Make yourself feel better

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't need me back
You're just the best I ever had

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

[Chorus]
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
The best I ever had
The best I ever

Waaah! You're so LOVABLE! Everybody likes you,
because you're a great person to have around
and it's always happy about everything ^^.
congrats! and...can I hug you?? plz! ^///^


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You represent... naivete.
So innocent and trusting... you can be very shy at
times, but it's only because you're not sure
how to act. You give off that "I need to
be protected vibe." Remember that not all
people are good. Being too trusting will get
you easily hurt.


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