growing old *by Melanie T. Lim

MANY people are afraid of growing old.

I'm afraid of growing old and boring.

Many people are afraid ofgrowing old, alone.

I'm afraid of growing old,insane.

Many people are afraid of losing their looks.

I'mafraid of losing my dreams.

Many people are afraid oflosing their youth.

I'm afraid of losing my soul.

When you're 15, 35 seems ancient.

When you're 35, 15 seems juvenile.

A turnaround in a split second - twodecades zoom past and before you know it, it's only amile to the next millennium.

Don't fear age- it's aright of personhood.

Don't fear death- it's God'sgreatest jest.

Don't grow old - you don't have to.

Don't date because you're desperate.

Don't marry because you're miserable.

Don't have kids because youthink your genes are superior.

Don't se paratebecauseyou think it's fashionable.

Don't drink because youhave troubles.

Don't gamble because you think winningis inevitable.

Don't philander because you thinkyou're irresistible.

Most likely, you're not.

Don't associate with people you can't trust.

Don't cheat. Don't lie. Don't pretend.

Don't try to buyyourway into the kingdom of God.

Don't dictate becauseyou're smarter.

Don't demand because you're stronger.

Don't sleep around because you think you're oldenoughand know better.

Don't hurt your kids because lovingthem is harder.

Don't sell your self, your family oryour ideals.

Don't stagnate.

Don't regress.

Learn a new skill.

Finda new friend.

Start a new career.

Don't live in thepast.

Time can't bring anything or anyone back.

Don'tput your life on hold for possibly Mr./Ms. Right.

Don't throw your life away on absolutely Mr./Ms.Wrong because your biological clock is ticking and youcan'tafford to have your eggs harvested before the newmillennium.

There's always a mad rush to something, somewhere butvictory does not always belong to those who finishfirst.

Sometimes, there is no race to be won, only aprice to be paid for some of life's more hastydecisions.

You can't always go with the throng whocould be wrong.

Sometimes, you have to be alone to beenlightened.To terminate your loneliness, reach out to thehomeless.

To feed your nurturing instincts, care forthe needy.

To fulfill your parenting fantasies, get apuppy.

Don't bring another life into this world forall the wrong reasons.

To keep yourself warm, buy ajacket.

In the long run, it will be less complicatedand less costly.

To make yourself happy, pursue yourpassions and be the best of what you can be.

Simplify your life.

Take away the clutter.

Get rid ofdestructive elements, abusive friends, nasty habitsand dangerous liaisons.

Don't abandon your responsibilities but don't overdoseon duty.

Don't live life recklessly without thought and feelingfor your family.

Be true to yourself.

Don't commit when you're not ready.

Don't keep otherswaiting needlessly.

Fall in love - it's the greatest thing on earth.

But take care and remember, after the fall must comethe rise.

Go on that trip. Don't postpone it.

Say those words.

Don't let the moment pass.

Do what you must even atsociety's scorn.

Write poetry.

Love deeply.

Walkbarefoot.

Hold hands.

Dance with wild abandon.

Cry atthe movies.

Take care of yourself.

Don't wait for someone to takecare of you.

You light up your life.

You driveyourself to your destination.

No one completes you -except you.

It is true that life doesn't get easier with age.

Itonly gets more challenging.

Don't be afraid.

Don'tlose your capacity to love.

Pursue your passions.

Liveyour dreams.

Don't lose faith in God.

Don't grow old. Just grow up. *

raining men!?

lolz!
wla lang..
hay, cra na nman comp sa bhay.. *im here at my aunt's house..*
o well,..
wla lang..hehehe..
bhay nga nman o, prang lyf..
damn pre! sh*t tlga!

i was reading blog a minute ago, saw ale's entry, mj0 can rel8 ako..
hay...some people are so insensitive tlga...sobrang self centered pa..

tpos that person is expecting me to be lyk her?, to act lyk her??
haller! as if! i'm TOTALLY not lyk her! iba 'to chong!
hindi ako k2lad nya! never in my entire lyf!
kung ako kelangan mg let go., so be it!
i'm happy for the both of you! goodluck!

nweiz, un na un! hehehe...
but im okei nman...and i'l be okei...
labo ko..
ah bsta un!
o cia, gtg..

*title??*

wla lang..

yestrday: aion, enrollment...k2miss dn pla mga tao sa block nmen.. lolz!;p
sympre, ngkya2n after... 'twas tina's bday kc..as usual tambay sa house nla hannah and 'inuman session'..
pro i ddn't drink...hehehe...mlmang, kung 'di ba nman ako mhli nyan pguwi ko d2.. so there, went home with 'dwin @ around six...got home mga eight na ata un...hehehe...
got my grades nren.. and as usual, i heard the lines:
"pinagaral ka pa man dn sa catholic exclusive school tpos gnto sa religion!?" -mom..
i heard that lines for the nth tyms na.. lolz!
hey! u cnt blame me, with that kind of prof?? *imagine a bulldog's face; with a rats voice*
hehehe... bad! but its true nman e..lolz!
bsyds, she's mad to the whole class, so what do we expect from her?!
and did i mention that i so h8 memorizing stuffs??
o well,.. but my grades are okei nman..

so there, i'm going to mkti l8r...
2mrow, skul ulit...

i have to fix this comp pa...from windows ME, my bro wants me to change it to Xp...

home alone!

home alone!
hehehe... wat's nEw?! lge nman e...:p
wla lang..
naubos ko na ata lhat ng food, vcds and cds d2 sa sobrang wlang mgwa!
well, 'di ko pa nman nauubos 2ng net card! hehehe...
hay, i want a new layout...badtrip nga lang i cnt fix it now kc cra mouse ko d2, so kinda manual..
hehehe...ala keyboard ng laptop ang gngwa ko d2 sa keyboard ko..:p
wla lang...
wla lang.,
wla lang....
hehehe... halata bang alang mgwa?! hmpf!
wla lang ulit...
haaaaaaaayyyyyyy...
am i making sense here?? *duh! hndi!obvious ba?! lolz!*
gsto ko lang mgtype...
satrday na nman bkas!!!! wla lang...
december na nman...hay..tym...

enuf na nga, la nkong mtype d2...

my comp is back!

wow! after ten years of not posting sumthin' here! hehehe... im back!:p
so there, dme nngyre and i can't post it all here dhl andme na nga dba?!
enweiz, i went @ my cousin's house knna sa qc...wla lang...sympre daan ng mkti, g4..pro DAAN lang ha... hmpf! hrap tlga pgsembreak, alang kickback... tsk, tsk...
aion, enrollment na nman...
wla lang tlga...
i've done wrong things... no, w8...i didn't do anything, w/c is partly wrong...e kc nman y ba i have 2 be always in the middle of an issue?! it's really hard, esp. kng between two people pa na close syo...
ANYWAYS! finish na nman un dba, dba?! okei na tyong lhat...:p
wla lang tlga akong mshare.. haaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyy...lyf nga nman o, prang buhay... hehehe...:p

mawik! wla lang..:p
rach! wla lang dn! 'enx for dropping by!
ale! tanx for dropping by dn!
kae! kelan ka nmen p2nthan?!
erika! kelan?!

ukewmE: im so sori, ntnong kc e, e u know me nman, im so open...
pro okei na nman kyo dba?! bsyds, he has the ryt to know dn nman, and np2ncn dn nman kc nya... c u sa enrolment! i'm glad we'r okei na.. no hard feelings ha! kinda na-misunderstood lang nya, kht na inexplain ko sknya un, he thot the 'wrong thing'...bsta, okei na..okei?!

rach! wla lang..bak sa choir, uhmmm... i dnt think so..:p

My Special List

I have a list of folks I know...
all written in a book,
And every now and then..
I go and take a look.

That is when I realize
these names... they are a part,
not of the book they're written in...
but taken from the heart.

For each Name stands for someone...
who has crossed my path sometime,
and in that meeting they have become...
the reason and the rhyme.

Although it sounds fantastic...
for me to make this claim,
I really am composed...
of each remembered name.

Although you're not aware...
of any special link,
just knowing you, has shaped my life...
more than you could think.

So please don't think my greeting...
as just a mere routine,
your name was not...
forgotten in between.

For when I send a greeting...
that is addressed to you,
it is because you're on the list...
of folks I'm indebted to.

So whether I have known you...
for many days or few,
in some ways you have a part...
in shaping things I do.

I am but a total...
of many folks I've met,
you are a friend I would prefer...
never to forget.

Thank you for being my friend!

- Contributed by LMMyers

hwla lang... tntmad ako mgpost!
2 make this post short, SINGLE NKO ULIT! hahaha..
go gurl!

knna, ngchoir ako.. wow! ako ba to?! hahaha... infairness, nmiss ko ung old tyms... aaw tear...

3rd, finals na! and di pko ngaaral... tsk, tsk.. bad...

aion, hnap pko ng new layout..

ciao!

Classy things to say when stressed:

1. "Okay, okay! I take it back. Unfuck you!!!"
2. "You say I'm a bitch like it's a bad thing?!"
3. "How many times do I have to flush before you go away?"
4. "Well this day was a total waste of make-up"
5. "Well aren't we a bloody ray of sunshine?"
6. "Don't bother me, I'm living happily ever after."
7. "Do I look like a fucking people person!"
8. "This isn't an office. It's HELL with fluorescent lighting"
9. "I started out with nothing still have most of it left"
10. "I pretend to work, they pretend to pay me"
11. "YOU!!... off my planet!!!"
12. "Therapy is expensive. Popping bubble plastic is cheap. You choose"
13. "Practice random acts of intelligence and senseless acts of self-control"
14. "Errors have been made. Others will be blamed"
15. "And your cry-baby, whiny-assed opinion would be.....?"
16. "I'm not crazy. I've been in a very bad mood for 30 years."
17. "Sarcasm is just one more service I offer."
18. "Whatever kind of look you were going for, you missed"
19. "Do they ever shut up on your planet?"
20. "I'm not your type. I'm not inflatable"
21. "Stress is when you wake up screaming and you realise you haven't gone to sleep yet"
22. "Back off!! You're standing in my aura."
23. "Don't worry. I forgot your name too."
24. "I just want revenge. Is that so wrong?"
25. "I work 45 hours a week to be this poor."
26. "Nice perfume. Must you marinate in it."
27. "Not all men are annoying. Some are dead."
28. "Wait...I'm trying to imagine you with a personality"
29. "Chaos, panic and disorder . . . my work here is done."
30. "Ambivalent? Well yes and no."
31. "You look like shit. Is that the style now?"
32. "Earth is full. Go home."
33. "Aw, did I step on your poor little bitty ego?"
34. "I'm not tense, just terribly, terribly alert."
35. "A hard-on doesn't count as personal growth."
36. "You are depriving some village of an idiot."
37. "If assholes could fly, this place would be an airport."

after 10 years..

after 10 years.. ngyon lang ulit ako ngupd8... hay, dme na nman kyo nmiss sa lyf ko.. hehehehe..
nweiz, wla lang...

belated haburdei Lem!

aion, d2 nko sa dorm..knna pa...
kbdtrip lang ung saleslady sa silver works...
and dme tao sa sm manila... ngtaka pa e noh... duh! sale!
hahaha...

o cia, tntmad nko mgtyp..

ciao!

phet's bday

aion, saw mawik and the crowd knna sa may tryc station..sympre bangag pko that tym..
came from phet's debut last nyt @ binagonan rizal..
hehehe... ansya! uminom ako, pro 1 glass lang...pro lkas pren ng effect..hehehe...
met emman and denis din, macoy's cousin na from baste..c macoy ung tropa ni moris na ni phet...
la lang...msya... k2mis lang tlga c phet.. i heard na mgddrop out na cya.. tsk,tsk.. l2pat na ng skul...
aion..wla lang... i'm not in the mood to type here the whole story..bsta msya..
and may psok na nman bkas..........haaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyy...............

advance haburdei to my mom!!!!!!!!!!!!!:p

after 10 years..

ookei... u guys missed half of my life.. lolz! joke!
la lang.. i'm so hapi! congrats nyko!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:p
hehehehe... aug. 22, 2004; a cinderella story @ sm mla.. with my luv..
*gets?!* UN na Un!!!!!!!!!!
how i wish na mgtgal kme...kht na may mga umeepal... well, thanks to apple! dhl sknya mjo lmlyo na ung epal..
cno ba nman kcng may gsto sa gurl na ngp2kbaba ka pra sa guy...dhl lam nya na nngh2na c eric pg nk2kita cya ng gurl na umiiyak, sympre gnon ggwen ng gurl.. ahh, ewan.. trust nlang tlga..
and i know my frends are there nman e.. hehehe.. sympre cla apple and frank ksbay nmen... hehehehe...wla lang..

aion, closing ng sportsfest smyaw kme.. eric, frank, sedric, yu, aldwin, me, ivy, rach, dia, aki...
pakshet! infront of all people pre! *well, snay ako sa stage mjo dim kc and infront af an all gurls na crowd..
i was shaking tlga that time, pro the show must go on..kya cge.. pro 'twas fun nman...


o cia, gtg...

mawik: amishu! saw u nga with kae... grbe, haba na ng hair ni kae!
i wish witness nyo nga mga changes sa lyf ko.. if only pwde ako smli sa prex, pro knowing na ngddorm ako..mlabo..

from a mail

THE PREMISE of this article lies on the principle that sometimes, loving a person doesn't mean it has to be romantic and loving a person for the rest of your life doesn't mean you have to end up marrying them. Can a man and a woman just be friends? I'd say yes and they should be.

Hindi dahil kinaibigan ka, liligawan ka na. Not every guy who befriends you has an ulterior motive. Get over yourself. Don't flatter yourself. There is a reason why he befriended you, but don't automatically assume that it's because he wants to be your so-called boyfriend. If this will be the principle you'll follow every time someone asks you to be his friend, you're gonna miss a great deal from the friendship.

Hindi dahil mabait sa iyo, nililigawan ka na. There are people who are naturally sweet and kind. There are people who are innately good and no matter how wicked you seem, they just find it so easy to be kind to you. It doesn't mean he is courting you. Don't put yourself through unnecessary stress trying to figure out if he's courting you or not. Because I think if he is, you won't have to guess, you'll know and you'll be very certain about it.

Hindi dahil he talks to you a lot, he loves you na. You don't befriend a person if you absolutely abhor him, right? Chances are you make sense when he talks to you, or you're probably very patient listening to him. The two of you probably connect on some level but why does it always have to be assumed to be romantic? Being two intelligent, mature human beings, you need to accept that it's nice to share a cup of coffee over a stimulating conversation, and that you don't have to automatically put romantic connotation to it. Relieve yourself of the pressure. It's just coffee and a shared interest.

Hindi dahil cute ang friend mo, crush/love mo na siya. This is the most amusing thing that hit me lately. People always assume that because your friend is cute or should I say, hot (because cute is a word you describe your high school crush while hot is a word you use to describe a hunk), "lakas amats mo na for repapips!" Let me just say this, at least from my own personal experience, I'm just nearsighted, I haven't gone blind. I can still appreciate God's creation! However, there will always be weird things, crazy things, stupid things that will keep you, believe me, from having a crush on him. First of all, you'd know his history with women, enough to judge what's good for you. Second, don't you just hate it when a guy who's absolutely always put together, who looks intelligent enough pronounces the word country as "kawntri" and the word mango as "meynggo." Call me crazy for judging a person just because he can't pronounce these words right. I admit, I'm crazy.

Hindi dahil you hang out with each other most of the time, you'd end up being boyfriend-girlfriend. Self-explanatory... There are a thousand, no million different reasons why things don't always turn out that way. There is no one proven formula. For all we know, the reason why he likes hanging out with you is because he likes getting kikay tips from you. He probably plans on being kikay himself and he needs a mentor.

A dinner with a guy friend does not necessarily mean equate to a date. Especially if you're paying for your share no. Hello? Three things to consider: the place, the topic and how the two of you actually planned to meet. First, how it was planned. If it were a date expect that he would ask you out at least three days before the actual date to give you some lead time, to give you the notion that you are not just a filler on his schedule. Second, the place. If it were a real date, the both of you would want real food and a place where you could really talk things through.
Don't go out with a guy to a movie on Friday night if you're really serious about him. Going to a movie is more like treating him like a "filler" just because you had nothing to do on a Friday night so you might as well go out. Topic. Ha! You wouldn't be talking about chikang artista, chikang opisina or argue if the one girl's boobs are real or not. You would be probably talking about sensible, quite personal stuff.

I therefore conclude that platonic relationships are never complicated; people just have tendencies to complicate them.

got this from shea's entry

A Song of Despairtranslated
by w.s.merwin

The memory of you emerges from the night around me.
The river mingles its stubborn lament with the sea.
Deserted like the dwarves at dawn.
It is the hour of departure, oh deserted one!
Cold flower heads are raining over my heart.
Oh pit of debris, fierce cave of the shipwrecked.
In you the wars and the flights accumulated.
From you the wings of the song birds rose.
You swallowed everything, like distance.
Like the sea, like time.
In you everything sank!
It was the happy hour of assault and the kiss.
The hour of the spell that blazed like a lighthouse.
Pilot's dread, fury of blind driver,turbulent drunkenness of love, in you everything sank!
In the childhood of mist my soul, winged and wounded.
Lost discoverer, in you everything sank!
You girdled sorrow, you clung to desire,sadness stunned you, in you everything sank!
I made the wall of shadow draw back,beyond desire and act, I walked on.
Oh flesh, my own flesh, woman whom I loved and lost,I summon you in the moist hour, I raise my song to you.
Like a jar you housed infinite tenderness and the infinite oblivion shattered you like a jar.
There was the black solitude of the islands,and there, woman of love, your arms took me in.
There was thirst and hunger, and you were the fruit.
There were grief and ruins, and you were the miracle.
Ah woman, I do not know how you could contain mein the earth of your soul, in the cross of your arms!
How terrible and brief my desire was to you!
How difficult and drunken, how tensed and avid.
Cemetery of kisses, there is still fire in your tombs,still the fruited boughs burn, pecked at by birds.
Oh the bitten mouth, oh the kissed limbs,oh the hungering teeth, oh the entwined bodies.
Oh the mad coupling of hope and forcein which we merged and despaired.
And the tenderness, light as water and as flour.
And the word scarcely begun on the lips.
This was my destiny and in it was my voyage of my longing,and in it my longing fell, in you everything sank!
Oh pit of debris, everything fell into you,what sorrow did you not express, in what sorrow are you notdrowned!
From billow to billow you still called and sang.
Standing like a sailor in the prow of a vessel.
You still flowered in songs, you still brike the currents.
Oh pit of debris, open and bitter well.
Pale blind diver, luckless slinger,lost discoverer, in you everything sank!
It is the hour of departure, the hard cold hourwhich the night fastens to all the timetables.
The rustling belt of the sea girdles the shore.Cold stars heave up, black birds migrate.
Deserted like the wharves at dawn.
Only tremulous shadow twists in my hands.
Oh farther than everything.
Oh farther than everything.
It is the hour of departure.
Oh abandoned one!

mood::swings

Mood Changes, once in a blue moon, from being blue to being happy.
Happiness doesn't stay long, but being blue sticks like crazy glue.
Even if i am happy, people often ask me why I look so depressed.
Maybe I am.
Other people ask why I'm always happy like there's nothing wrong in the world.
Maybe I just don't care. I often hide my true feelings from everyone.
People who often see me think that i am a happy young lady without a care in the world, but the few people who really know, who have read my journals or sees through my outer shell, knows what kind of emotions are in me. These people often call me "weird".
I often get through the day without even talking about me.
However, when love comes into your life, that's a completely different ballgame.
Can't go on hiding everything anymore.
I let it out more often now, writing more, opening up more.
I have to, not because of obligation, because of Love.

home alone

wla lang...
opening the wncaa, as usual pno ng kulasa ang ultra knna.. saw the players..
sister mikee and sister jonep dn... hahaha...
mya laban ng st.scho and miriam...ceu & ua&p...

yestrday, kla karen kme nktmbay kc alang tv sa razz...
hmph! may isang talo na ang admu, at sa ue pa!
pro okei lang...isa pa lang nman...:p

nweiz, pnygan nko sa debut ni phet! yey! lolz!
okei, so wat am i gonna wear?!!!!!!!!
pool or beach party, hawaiian attire...and isa pko sa 18 treasures..
think!!!!!!!!! pro i have sumthin' on my mind na, pro im havin' doubts pren.
hhhhhhhhmmmmmmmmm............ any suggestions??????

hwla lang... i have nothing else to do..pro lpet na mid terms...

mawik: ano?sa 21??? di ako gnon ka-sure ha..

hAppI AnnIv!!!!!!!!!!
miss ko na kyo!!!!!!!!!!!!

rants

wla lang..
all of a sudden, i dnt feel updating my blog... hehehe...
or i just have no enough tym for this... sa sobrang dme ng nngy2re, i cnt hardly remember dem ol wen i'm infront of this comp. na.
hahaha... o well,.

cuz!!!!!!!!!!! yakang yaka ba ang upcat! hehehe...kaw pa!

cge, ulan pa! wla lang..

missin' my HS frends..

college is really diff..
i can't even predict people's attitude these days..
they dnt even care if they got 5 on almost all of their subjects..
well, they get shocked at first...but after that, they'll just do the same old routine.
hay, bsta ako, i cnt afford to get low grades...kht na anjan ang bisyo, go pa dn..
nax! hahaha..


nweiz, aion...got rid of smoking na, pgmay occassion nlang.. that's what i promised to my bessy.. wow! gudgurl ba?! hahaha..
sa mga mk2bsa nto, quiet nlang kyo...:p

dilemma

pakshet!!! mhrap ba pmli sa dlwa?!? hay, lyf.. u can't have all the things u want, a'yt!? so please, think hard!!!

ARiEs

Aries (March 21 - April 19) The simplest tasks could turn difficult during the first half of August. Doing a good job gets tough when it seems that everyone turns stubborn on you. But you won’t feel low and gloomy for too long! By month's end, you decide to get things done yourself instead of waiting for people to sing the same tune.